firstly i wanna say i'm really nantok actually..haha!! mana x nya..keje 24hours..tdo x cukup..then hangout ngan frenz..but i'm still happy even yeah penat sesangat! lately mcm2 happen kt diri aku..yela,as i said i had so many hard time dis month..sad aite! yeah sgt!
but tu bkn point utk ptg ni..main point is i juz wanna tell how much i'm sad n hurt,but still ade org2 yg still wat aku senyum..dak2 opis aku expecially wan,aie,kirin..even we olz bru knl around 3months but i really feel comfortable with them..its like da lama kwn..sgt memahami..sekepala n sgt rasa selamat jew ngan diorg..SELAMAT?? haha..dont get me wrong! i mean the way diorg amik berat n tlg kwn2 membuatkn diri kte sgt dihargai... :)
sounds nice aite??! seyesly mmg nice la...diorg mmg jenis fun..before ni aku mcm ignore diorg ckit sbb yela aku ade azrai..aku x nk la rasa serba slh even berkawan ngan org lain..but now after dia tgglkn aku baru aku nmpk rupanya ade org still amik berat psl aku..so agk cure gak la sakit d ati ni...hehe
mcm today...ktorg kua main bowling,mkn2,lepak2...mula2 nk karok tp lmbt lak..bilik penuh..so diorg decide main bowling jela..haha..aku x main pn juz tgk and sokong2 je..ahakz! n kt opis lak..aie salu tlg aku cari kotak..kalo aie x tlg aku kompem lembap la cz x reti pilih kotak..haha..thnx aie!!
wan,aie,kirin.... lawak bodo n selamba korg salu wat aku x henti2 gelak..korg sgt fun!!!! thnx yeah!! :p
monink olz!! new dash here..hahahaha..x dela..btw juz nk share wut will i do after break up ngan bf bebaru ni..haha..guess wut will i do??hahai will do make over for myself!!
y must i do dat??haha..gud ques! cz i wanna be sum1 new n get rip off from my past...my bad memories..n the most important is i want find back my confident again..x semestinya pmpn yg d tinggalkn BF or d lukai mesti jadi pmpn yg sgt hodoh..sgt UGLY BETTY aite..!?dgr pn x sedap apetah lg kalo d pandang..wee ;p
so as pmpn..even we fail before it doesnt mean we fail everything..life must go on..so keep moving n look forward...so dats wut i do..i go for sumthing dat can make me feel happy at the same time look beautiful..haha..perasan suda...x kesah la..janji happy..so ape salahnya da penat2 keje ni habiskan duit utk make over from A-Z.. ;p
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mungkin tu je kot buat sementara waktu ni..tu pn tgk bajet cukup x..hahahaha..ok gulz!!xoxo!
nite peeps!!long time gak la x ziarah blog ni..um..lately ni aku hanya mengurungkan diri utk mententeramkn prasaan aku sendiri..how bad izit..only i knoe...too much to talk..smpai aku sendiri x tau ape yg patut aku lakukan...adekah ini pilihan yg terbaik..x menyesal ke aku?? ntah la...
nape manusia ade yang susah untuk mengungkapkan ape yg dirasainya?? nape begitu sukar utk di luahkan?? or x tau cara untuk meluahkan isi ati yg terbuku dlm diri?? utk aku yg mana 1...? aku susah utk mengungkapkn segala yg bermain dlm diri aku..i rather to b silent cz i knoe ape yg d ungkapkan pleh aku x de ape pn yg akan berubah...segalanya sama jew....its like i'm juz wasting my time to talk talk n talk...
bunyi mcm give up jew...give up kew....ntah la..x tau nk ckp mcmn..everythng move too fast! x sempat utk menghayati ape yg ade d samping aku..tau2 tetiba abes mcm tu jew...ape prasaan aku ketika itu? sedih? happy? wut?? can sum1 tell me y?! plz explain to me....i really need it... :'(
so many times i felt like dis...again and again...i dont knoe la nape malang je nasib aku ni an..alwez get in love with sum1 yg ntah la..complicated sebenarnya...aku x tau ape yg aku rasakn skunk dlm ati aku...sakit yes since i knoe wut love is?? alwez sakit dan terus disakiti...starting cukup perfect..but ending its too much untuk digambarkan rasa sakit tu..but can i lying to myself about wut i really want n dream it!??
yes...dats true bila semua org leh tipu org lain..but leh ke tipu diri sendiri?? x kan leh... hanya buat diri sendiri bertambah terseksa..happy??sumtimes la.... but most of the time it hurts..
its like my heart longs for u..my soul dies for u..my eyes cry for u..my empty arms reach out for u..time will make u forget me, but u dont knoe time will make me love u more than before..nothng is more painful than losing u,and still wanting u..love can make me happy but often times it hurts..i had a dream before and it was about u..then i noticed a tear fell from my eyes..u knoe y?? cz only in my dream i can see u...and every time i close my eyes,all i see is u and u're the 1 i've alwez wished for...
shud i hate u bcoz u hurt me?? or shud i love u bcoz u make me feel happy even for a while..?? now i believe when people say love is blind..cz i must have been blind to love sum1 like u..how can u break my heart so many times and can tell me u still love me??? how could u....but i will alwez love u..i juz wont love the way u treated me..
1 day u will seek love and be sorry dat u threw mine away..my heart fought for wut it wanted..now my heart is having to fight to let u go..sumtimes i juz remember u said u didn't want to see me get hurt..so does dat mean u closed ur eyes when i cried?? only u hve the answer...
u knoe wut,its really hurts when u expected so much more from the person u once loved so much..i wish i was lost my mind so dat i can forget evrythng bout u..easy huh?? but its not! its like my mind knoe wut is right but my heart is being retarded and still cares..try ask me how many times my heart has been broken??and i will tell its more than enuff for u to scared to fall in love again...
how can i lose sumthng dat i never had?? y is it easy to fall in love and yet so hard to be loved back? y do i have to fall if its u i cant have..? y is there a "u" in "me"..but never a "me" in "u".. it hurts the most when u can actually feel ur heart breaking..true love never dies as we see in our eyes,only when we let go dat we can truly say gudbye..
alwez remember dat love can sumtimes be magic..but magic can sumtimes..juz be an illusion..when u are in love and u get hurt,its like a cut..it will heal but there will alwez b a scar...i miss u a little,i guess u could say,a little too much,a little too often..and a little more each day..
i wish i had the guts to walk away and forget bout wut we had..but i cant bcoz i knoe u wont come after me..and i guess dat is wut hurts the most..time goes by a lot slower when u miss the one u love..u hurt me more than i deserve,how can u be so cruel?? and i love u more than u deserve,y i'm such a fool? every few nites u came into my dreams..i juz cant get rid of u like u got rid of me..
days continue to pass..y do i still have tears in my eyes until now? when he was never mine? shud i cry bcoz dat is all he is?? is hardest time for me cz i still love u but i have to let u go..without any choice..y did u leave?? y? love hurts but so does life...i dont miss him! i miss who i thought he was... it hurts me the most!
i dont regret the things i've done with u..i juz regret the things i didn't do when i had the chance..1 thing u never knoe is,u're the only person who can make me smile even when i'm crying..thnx for being a part of my life before dis..and u're the best thing dat ever happened to me..
fun time with them..!! :)
