l0ve vs hurt???

um..x tau nk mula cmne..pikiran kosong..ati rasa????sakit??ntah la..my mind skunk sgt kosong n blur..actually aku bru terjaga dr tdo..ntah cmne leh tetido,letih cgt myb..jz imagine aku kje gila2..no time for me to rest..even kje tu myb nmpk simple but byk guna tenaga & otak..um but ni bkn pe aku nk cite la..ni aku da melalut jaoh ni..haha..gelak dlu..walaupn dlm ati tuhan yg tau.. :(

y i'm here n wrote dis tonite??the main reason sbb nk lepaskn prasaan ati yg sakit ni..no place lg da selain ni..fb??um,even aku x de niat nk menagih simpati dia cakap aku menagih..aku x phm la..ape yg aku wat alwez x kene pd dia..frm A-Z..wth?aku x tau npe..pe lg yg x ckup?aku da try wat evrythng jz for him but he didnt noticed wut i'm done..yg dia nmpk alwez keburukn..i'm still manusia biase..dont put or make me feel like i'm nothng..u knoe kn mcmn rasanya!!!!!!!

its really hard for me to thru all dis jz wanna be with u..if u on my feet can u accept all dis?frm beginning?can u?betapa aku cukup kuatkn ati aku hanya x nk tgk ko x happy..tp sumtimes timbul gak perasaan y aku msti lakukn sume ni kalo ko x pnh reti utk menghargai aku..now my feeling between love n hurt..aku x tau..aku syg tp ati aku sakit.....pedih....

kdg2 terdetik kt pkirn ni y ko x leh treat aku mcm ko pnh treat ex ko?or much better than her.. sbb ko still ade syg kt dia or wut?aku x phm..yes u alwez said love me but cukup ke sekadar kata2??i give u the last chance but???????i hate to say dis..i'm afraid if 1 day my feeling towards u its gone..dats wut i'm really scared now..if u never try to appreciate n wat aku rasa aku ni sgt istemewa berbanding sesape pn i'm sory if 1 day i have to leave u..bkn sbb aku x syg..tp aku takot bila da terlalu mkn ati,anythng will happen..who knoe.... :'(

but now i'm still believe god give dis test for me bkn utk wat aku terseksa..aku percaya ade hikmah sume kesakitan yg aku lalui skunk ni..myb ni ujian utk melihat sejauh & sekuat mn kasih syg antara aku & dia dpt bertahan dlm melalui segala dugaan..dats y i'm still hoping n alwez x pts2 berdoa yg 1day ko akn nmpk & sedar sape aku disisi ko..itu jew..amin.. :)

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