Saturday, March 26, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
love or meantime gurl??
as usual..juz update wut happen in my few days ago..i dont kno its gud or bad time n day for me..but yes!!lately i'm totally happy with him..we spent time together like everyday..even x de duit pn we still happy n leh jumpa even x de wtpe aktivity menarik..ntah la adekah ni d sbb kn mainan prasaan aku jew or pe...but sumtimes i feel like i'm alwez b a LOSER..being so stupid when in luv with sum1..
Go and get ur life ^^
y i feel like dis??is like hukuman yg tuhan beri ats kesalahan pe pn aku x tau..aku slalu x dpt kebahagiaan yg aku nk..y all dis happen to me..no answer fer dat!only god kno wut the reason fer my badness... i knoe im not perfect..im so bad!!very bad!but i never playing peoples feeling..but y they keep playing on me..
now im in luv with sum1 yg aku knl start from kje..but then tetibe leh ade feeling...i kno its too soon fer me to get in new relationship..but aku sndiri x dpt tahan prasaan aku..aku senang syg org n mudah benci org..but bila aku da syg sesorg tu aku syg btol2..dats wut im afraid with myself..dats y mudah utk dorg permainkan aku..hurt!!!
deep inside sikit2 aku d lukai..aku x tau n da x reti menilai kejujuran n keikhlasan sesorg..bg aku sumenya palsu..sdgkn yg aku sangka baik mcm malaikat pun rupanya lebih teruk dr setan..so pe lg kepercayaan yg tggl dlm diri aku..yes aku sgt sygkn wan..aku x cakap yg dia x jujur or pape jela..but sumtimes im scared!scared if it happen again..alwez alwez n alwez..BROKEN HEARTED!aku takot if aku akn d lukai skali lg..aku x tau npe since smlm aku rasa lain sgt..asek pikir psl dia..dia pn da mcm jauh dr aku..x tau la but aku rasa mcm tu..da mula endah x endah psl aku..aku x tau la ni hanya la ilusi or wut! myb sbb dia sakit n x sehat kot...but npe aku rasakn ketakutan yg teramat..
arini lak aku jumpa dia..but y aku byk terasa ngan dia..the way dia cakap ngan aku pn aku rasa mcm lain cgt..mcm da x de syg tu..ntah la..aku sendiri x phm..biar la masa tentukan...
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