Realizati0n... for gulz...!!

from my past experience and myb bad memories so i wrote dis to sum1 who juz taking me for granted..so here it goes....

sumtimes,in our relentless efforts to find we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us..we miss out on so many beautiful things..go for the guy of deeds and not for the guy of words for u will find rewarding happiness not with the guy u love but the 1 who loves u..

the best lovers are the capable of loving from a distance far enuff to allow the person to grow..but never too far to feel the love deep within ur being..to let go of sum1 doesnt mean u hve to stop loving..it only means dat u allow dat person to find his own happiness..letting go in not juz setting him free,but it also setting urself free from the bitterness and hatred in ur heart..do not let the bitterness scare u away and dishearten u..but let urself grow with wisdom in bearing it..u will find peace in juz loving sum1 from a distance,not expecting anythng as a return..

but b careful,for dis can sustain life but can never gve enuff room for us to grow..there will come a time when we juz find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to dat person..dis feeling will soon consume our thoughts and actions..the sad part of it is when we realize dat the other party feels nothng for us but plain frenship..we start or desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still trashed..u dont hve to forget sum1 u love..but wut u need to lean is how to accept the verdict of reality without being sorry for urself..

believe me! u would b better off giving dat love to sum1 deserving..dont let ur heart run in ur life alone...listen only to reasons but never fail to recognize how u really feel..alwez remember,if u love sum1 today it means dat sum1 better is coming tomorrow..if u feel lost in love dat doesnt mean u failed in love..dont shy to cry if u hve to cz the tears will wash away the bitterness and hurt dat past had left to u...

juz let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to u..and when it does,pray for dat love to stay and last a lifetime....

xoxo !!

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pressure stuck in my life !!

aarrgh!!mood skunk rasa mcm nk g blasah org je..x kire la jantan ke betina..lg2 yg pnh cari psl ngn aku.x tau pe mslh korg suke sgt semak dlm idup aku..aku x pnh lak ganggu idup korg..semak pun x hingin la! ooo myb aku perfect dr korg..hahaha..sbb tu korg suke nk wat aku down..lalala..see,x psl2 mula2 je da mukaddimah tensyen..um,ntah la..sgt stress ngn life ni..alwez ade je problm yg dtg x abes2..lpas satu2 mslh yg timbul..x phm btol la..npe la mslh suke cgt terjah idup aku ni..pe da x de org lain dia nk terjah ke!!! da mcm melodi nk terjah2 sesuke ati dlm idup org! damn it!

i hate wut i feel now..problm alwez behind me..ntah pe sumpah kt diri aku ni pn aku x tau..sux gler..pe aku ni robot ke x de otak..nk gak relax kn otak ni tanpa sebarang bebanan..tp x pernah dpt! ntah pe malang pn aku x tau..sumtimes rasa nk nngis je..but pe aku dpt??nothng..lg mslh timbul ade la..x phm btol ngn permainan dunia ni..

i'm only 21..still young kot nk pikul & accept sume problm yg dtg dlm idup aku ni..aku suppose lom cukup matang kot utk melalui sume dugaan yg tuhan bg ni..but i knoe aku x leh slh kn tuhan izit?? um..tp aku pn manusia biase gak..mn tahan sume nie..aku tensyen sgt..umah,office,membe,bf...senang cite evrythng la..i'm stuck in the middle of it!

sumtimes nk sgt g jauh dr sume mslh ni...but where??no place i can go...i'm alone..fucking alone!nobody beside me...yes i still hve a frenz but pe je yg aku leh wat? diorg pn ade life diorg..mslh diorg..aku x nk la semak2 dlm life diorg..so only 1 i can do is cry cry & cry..i'm fucking tired with dis..tears alwez with me..nobody realize dat cz i'm alwez hide it when i'm with them.. :)

good izit? yela champion dlm menyembunyikn prasaan yg sbnr..yes! dats me! since i'm 12years da start pendam je anythng happen..dats y org yg btol2 mengenali diri aku tau aku ni jenis yg memendamkn evrythng tanpa nk story..ish! da mcm keling bahasa melayu aku! senang cite pendam la..80% idup aku bergelumang ngan mslh..happy jap jew..pastu?? um.....

bkn niat aku utk meluahkn sume perkara dlm blog ni..cz yes its not a good thing..but mn lg aku nk luahkn kalo bkn kt cni...aku bkn makhluk asing yg leh g planet lain..aku x larat nk pendam sume bnda..nasib baik blog ni not for public..jz yg btol2 rapat je tau..um..x dela aku malu cgt setiap kali meluahkn isi ati yg bodo2 kt cni...

myb cukup la wat masa ni..nk tdo..pening cgt! duuhhh~~

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l0ve vs hurt???

um..x tau nk mula cmne..pikiran kosong..ati rasa????sakit??ntah la..my mind skunk sgt kosong n blur..actually aku bru terjaga dr tdo..ntah cmne leh tetido,letih cgt myb..jz imagine aku kje gila2..no time for me to rest..even kje tu myb nmpk simple but byk guna tenaga & otak..um but ni bkn pe aku nk cite la..ni aku da melalut jaoh ni..haha..gelak dlu..walaupn dlm ati tuhan yg tau.. :(

y i'm here n wrote dis tonite??the main reason sbb nk lepaskn prasaan ati yg sakit ni..no place lg da selain ni..fb??um,even aku x de niat nk menagih simpati dia cakap aku menagih..aku x phm la..ape yg aku wat alwez x kene pd dia..frm A-Z..wth?aku x tau npe..pe lg yg x ckup?aku da try wat evrythng jz for him but he didnt noticed wut i'm done..yg dia nmpk alwez keburukn..i'm still manusia biase..dont put or make me feel like i'm nothng..u knoe kn mcmn rasanya!!!!!!!

its really hard for me to thru all dis jz wanna be with u..if u on my feet can u accept all dis?frm beginning?can u?betapa aku cukup kuatkn ati aku hanya x nk tgk ko x happy..tp sumtimes timbul gak perasaan y aku msti lakukn sume ni kalo ko x pnh reti utk menghargai aku..now my feeling between love n hurt..aku x tau..aku syg tp ati aku sakit.....pedih....

kdg2 terdetik kt pkirn ni y ko x leh treat aku mcm ko pnh treat ex ko?or much better than her.. sbb ko still ade syg kt dia or wut?aku x phm..yes u alwez said love me but cukup ke sekadar kata2??i give u the last chance but???????i hate to say dis..i'm afraid if 1 day my feeling towards u its gone..dats wut i'm really scared now..if u never try to appreciate n wat aku rasa aku ni sgt istemewa berbanding sesape pn i'm sory if 1 day i have to leave u..bkn sbb aku x syg..tp aku takot bila da terlalu mkn ati,anythng will happen..who knoe.... :'(

but now i'm still believe god give dis test for me bkn utk wat aku terseksa..aku percaya ade hikmah sume kesakitan yg aku lalui skunk ni..myb ni ujian utk melihat sejauh & sekuat mn kasih syg antara aku & dia dpt bertahan dlm melalui segala dugaan..dats y i'm still hoping n alwez x pts2 berdoa yg 1day ko akn nmpk & sedar sape aku disisi ko..itu jew..amin.. :)

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at my opis aka neraka..!! hahaha ;p

adeh..sok kene kje lg...ayoyai...smpai bila mau mcmni..ponat da ni kje ctu...gaji da la mcm bg duit blanje dak tadika...tp kerah suh wat kje mcm la gaji ktorg naik! damn!! arghhhh...nasib baik la aku ni mkn gaji..kalo aku ni lg besar dr tuan punya opis,da lama aku bawak masok court!hahaha...ni sok kene ot!!wajib no excuse....duuuhhh!heloooo....wtf! hanya sbb x cukup target..mcm lahanat jew....ish....aku pn 1 nasib baik la pkir skunk susah nk cari kje...nk x nk tahan jela...um...boring!

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agak pening pale otak aku tgk blog ni..!!haha

pestime wat blog..sgt teruja gak...tp pe yg nk d teruja kn pn aku x tau..hahaha...dr td 1 hapa pn x edit2 lg..hahaha...pe nk jd ni..tu la buta IT lg..hahaha....xpe2...sabar..org yg sabar pasti akn menemuk jalannya..cehwah..caiyok2!!

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